03/21/2005: "Being paranoid and stressed in the middle of the night.. not too important."

Math homework done, due in less than 12 hours. Still have my paper to write (due Tuesday) and test to study for.. but I'll do that tomorrow/tonight. At least it shouldn't be a very difficult day. Just go to class, pretend I'm paying attention, then come back. I might need to stop off at the post office, but I don't think so.

What else is up? I have stuff I can't deal with compounding onto more stuff I can't deal with, which sits right next to the pile of stuff I haven't dealt with. Well, I guess "can't" isn't a good word. I can. I'm not dead yet, so "can't" clearly isn't appropriate. However, it certainly makes day-to-day life less cheery.

So, update on Japan: have found out that travel by air (via Haneda airport within Japan) is the easiest and best way. Have found out that this is not cheap. Also looking into train and boat. Apparently I really need to take the plane, since it'd be much easier on me, much nicer, and not as difficult.. or at least that's what someone tells me. I actually really appreciate it. Hey, they care enough to want me to go through the least amount of trouble! Alas, again.. not cheap. So we might be doing boat instead. Of course, the irony of this all is.. no matter how much information I find, I still don't know how to get to where I'm going! Knowing ticket prices is one thing. Getting to the ticket counter, buying the ticket, and getting to where you're going (which will be a multistop event regardless of what I do) are different things indeed.

Now, what would a stoic say about this? "Ah well, that's life." Which is true. So.. I'll deal with it later.

.. yes, I complain alot. Kinda sad. I really think it's just the stress piling up right now. I really know practically nothing about this summer, which is kinda bothersome since I prefer to know every little detail before doing something. I've also had some.. recent things come up. Nothing life-altering (at least not to my life).. but 300 little things get pretty big eventually.

Something positive.. I really should say something positive. Well, I'm still enjoying my DS games? And this week (ignoring the test and the paper) shouldn't be all that difficult? Eh.. life isn't as bad as I make it sound, I'm sure. Somewhere in my mind, I know this. I just don't listen to this part of my mind and get insanely paranoid and stress out over little details.

ACK! I need to book my hostel..!!

... tomorrow, before school.

If I have time, I'll write again before I leave. Anyway, I'll write later.


Jason