04/04/2005: "We all do what we must do.."

Current Sounds: BoA - 02 Someday, Somewhere
Currently Feeling: Don't really want to sleep tonight.

Bleh.. I've been so bad about these things. I seem to be slipping off and kinda disappearing as of late. I'm trying to not be more than a week late in getting back to people or keeping in touch, but.. I don't always do so well at that. I'm really sorry about that.

I probably shouldn't be writing right now, at least logically I shouldn't. I'm not exactly in a positive frame of mind, so I won't exactly give a very flowery look at the world around me. That noted, let's get on with the fun and my oh-so-positive outlook, shall we?

Okay, so I just deleted about a page and a half of content. I ramble a bit, so.. let's try to condense things and keep it fairly decent. I at least try to not be a dark, miserable, happiness-sucking cloud of despair sometimes. Well, I try. Not sure how well it works.

Have two tests and a paper due this week.. plus, I'll be working nights, just to add a little more spice into it.

For some reason, I'm not really tired. I need to sleep (and will be laying down in the next 20 minutes), but.. I just don't really feel like sleeping. It's kinda weird, since I've been like this alot recently. I don't really want to go to bed, and I don't want to wake up when I finally do.

I'm going to really try to keep in better touch. Not only is it not right to just not reply to e-mails and just disappear.. it's probably best for me anyway. When things get harder and more stressful, locking yourself away isn't exactly the best way to do things. Now, whether or not I'll actually do this.. we'll have to see. But it sure sounds nice to say, doesn't it?

So, I'll be off. Might not be around this week much, especially since I might have to run from school to work, but.. we'll see what I can do. Will write later..


Jason