07/19/2005: "[Teacher's College] In memory of.."

Not really going to dwell on this here and now, since I don't really feel like bleeding my heart out in a public forum right now.. but I just wanted to make mention that Sam will be terribly missed. I may have complained here and there, and god knows I didn't always appreciate her like she should have been, but I really will miss her. Part of me expected that it would happen someday, but for the most part, since she's been there for all of my life that I can remember, she felt like something that should simply be there forever. I know I've said this many times and it's still pathetic every time I do, I guess.. but I really don't take loss well. And this loss, unlike the other less than a month ago, will be permanent. Death taketh away and yet never gives back in return. Death bears no malice nor joy in what is done, but has a job that it must do. In a way, I can understand. We all have to do our job, we have our lot in life and we have to live with it. This is what Death does, nothing more or less. It's hard to say that you don't hate Death, since all it does is rip pieces of you away.. but I guess I can understand it in some way. This doesn't mean, though, that I wouldn't truly, with all of my darkened, jaded heart want things to be different. But Death has already come and taken Sam off to where she belongs, I suppose. I just pray what she's been greeted with is better than the world she had here. Take care, Sam. You'll be missed, and never forgotten.

I should mention, I guess, that Sam was my cat who has been with the family for all of the life I can remember. She was.. 17, nearly 18, I think. Ever since Tigger died 8~ years ago on my birthday, she's the only pet I could really find myself caring about. Now.. I don't really know.

Anyway, I meant to post and talk about how things have been going, but I don't really have time.. I really should run. I will be around tomorrow (I think).. so I'll try to post when I can. Might be going somewhere, so we'll see. In other news, I think one of my students likes me.. and I have absolutely no idea what to do about this. Frankly, people don't usually like me. It's just the unofficial rule. No one has a crush on Jason. So.. I'm not sure what to make of this. But.. yes, I have to get going. In a way, I guess this is for the better. Sam really does deserve something, even if it's just the attention of being worthy of a post in her own right.


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