07/31/2005: "[Library] My, I love the world. Stop and smell the roses."

... Let's just say that I really, truly dislike my boss. It's looking like he might be assuming that he's not going to pay me for the entire month I worked when I leave. I need that money, and I need it soon. Especially to defray the cost of the cell (that did, admittedly, cost a bit more than I figured it would). I think I still should be able to make it back to Tokyo okay, but if any unexpected expenses come up.. god, I just hope I'm not screwed.

How could you be such a horrid person and still think of yourself as a preaching, lovely child of god? He honestly sickens me. Especially because he doesn't even bat an eyelash whenever he starts screwing me. I need to make it back to Tokyo. I was promised the money. Damn.

Not going to touch things on the homefront. That's a box best left in the deepest, darkest corners and never, ever touched. Unfortunately, I'll have to deal with it eventually. I just really don't want to.

.. I need to grow up. I need to just cut it out. Let go. I hate being so pathetic and weak, hoping that something out there will come and save me, or that something will somehow make the world better. Sometimes life just sucks. I really should just deal.

Yeah.. a little dark and jaded today. I'll write later, when I get the chance.

And yes, I'm on right now because I can login at the library without permission. Darn me.
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