12/02/2005: "The tomb I've made with my own hands"

On Friday, December 2nd, Kat said:

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i relate to those feelings a lot right now...
i'm worried my email might play a part in it...if so can you email or call me please?
Actually even if not if you could just email me and let me knkow that.
It may have come off bady because i'm still trying to sort a lot of things out. One minute i feel one way the next i feel another, and things are really chaotic and disorganized inside right now.
i dont' really know naything. i keep changing my mind about a lot in relation to my life and others and such, but what i do know for sure is that i do care about you dear friend and that if there's anything bothering you that i've said or done to please tell me -that at least gives us a chance to work it out.
Perhaps if i'm hurting you because id on't know if i even am-i know this is a hrd time of year for you as it is for me-but i know that i've been affecting other people badly which is why i've been withdrawing and isolating even more than usual lately. Though school does screw with that. -but if i am perhaps until i get more things sorted out i should let you have some space?
i care bout you...
Did you feel left or abandoned by me in any way? i'm not going anywhere...

On Monday, December 5th, Joe said:

Dear one, what has or is happening to you? Your distress leaps from the words on the screen and into my heart like arrows. What can I do to help? I love you so much..the son I will never have on my own. What can this ghost father of the web do for you..to hold you in an embrace..to tell you over and over I love you and am proud of you...