12/11/2005: "Watching through the looking glass"

Been working on finals, presentations, research papers, homework, and projects clear since Tuesday. Didn't sleep much this weekend so I could finish everything up. And here I am.

I still have to memorize 25 slides of artwork, 4 details each (title, date, artist or culture, meduim) by 0930 tomorrow. I'm going to read over it for 20 minutes and go to bed.. I have to leave early tomorrow. Other than that, though, I've gotten everything done. What did I gain out of these late nights, sleeplessness, and tons of work? Nothing much, really. I'm just excessively annoyed at my art class for obscene requirements. I seem to just be angry right now, that's about it. But I've been this way for the past few days. Having my life crumble and having absolutely nothing to keep me afloat for nearly a week other than the fractured social schedules, I really am not a very happy person right now. My stress coping level is rather low right now, which isn't good. I still haven't weathered the storm and have to deal with even more in the upcoming days.

Lovely.

Regarding the story, I figured I might as well post it. 10 page story (single spaced, 20.5 double), fiction (which isn't too common for me), written in 2 days. Written entirely in the first person. If you have some time and don't mind, please check it out. I'd hate to have spent so much time on this to only have one or two people actually read it. I'm nearly considering modifying it and submitting it somewhere. A bit of a warning, though: if you're prone to depression, empathic, or have any reason to be interested in preserving your mood, you might not want to read it quite yet. Again, I wasn't the happiest camper while writing it, and it's entirely in the first person, which means that most of the story is a long, running monologue of thoughts. Oh, and the required theme of this project? "Change".

I plan on rewriting the end, due to it sucking. Even if it won't change anything when I submit it, I still feel like I owe it to put some effort into the ending.

Downloadable, MSWord, *.doc verson: Download
Online, HTML version: New Window

I need to go and read over the slides now and write an e-mail before I go to bed.

To anyone it may concern: sorry I haven't been the best person to be around or know as of late. I'm just.. dead inside right now. It's not too uncommon this time of year, but it seems to be impacting my life alot this year. Really not so good.

I'll... write later.


Jason