01/17/2006: "Please..? onegaishimasu?"

There's got to be someone out there with a bit of sympathy, something of a soul even? I'm hoping for someone to take me away from here, and quick.

I'm on my 15 minute break from Japanese class. I am now suddenly filled with horror. Sheer, utter, unabashed horror. There's quite a bit of coursework associated with the class. Not to mention using a new textbook, so I have to catch up on kanji, vocab, and forms that I hadn't learned yet. To round it all out, nearly everyone in the class knows eachother, as they've all taken the same teacher for quite a time.

Save me?

The sad thing is that I've only gone to the opening of one class, the other two are starting tomorrow, and I already feel swamped with work. Why, why have you forsaken me, Japanese? I'm a.. well, moderately decent person as far as human beings go.

On the positive side, if I live through this, I should become better. On the negative side, that if seems pretty strong and terrifying.

Odds are also fairly high that I'll be entering a speech contest sometime in April. Not that I'm keen on it, but there's a 5% extra credit attached to it, and I think it's something that I should do. If anyone's in the same city as I (all 2.5 of you who read this), let me know. You can see me flail about and ramble off in Japanese.. in public! I'd like some sort of support, at least. But I can't think of anyone to drag who's not immediately related to me.

I need to get going back to class.. though the urge to run (and run far) is tempting indeed. I'm probably over-reacting, or at least I pray I am. But the sheer level of difficulty just sounds daunting. I've only once before had this reaction to a class, and it was a 10-day winter Writing class, which I dropped immediately after the first class.

... if others before me have done it, I know I can. I have the resources, and I've spent alot of time studying Japanese. It's not just luck that's gotten me this far.. right?

Gotta run.. save me?


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