01/29/2006: "'Yes, I lost my mind..'"

Current Sounds: Ai Otsuka - Smily
Currently Feeling: I can breathe.. kinda. I don't care for being sick.

Caring Meter (remember Care Bears?)

Regarding the image above, I usually don't care for posting random images, but for anyone who may remember "Care Bears" and the "Caring Meter", I think this is worth uploading and posting. No real significant meaning, I just thought it was interesting to run across.

I was going to write something of some form of note, but my head hurts and I'm far too tired right now. This week was just long, drawn out, and I really don't remember much anyway. Some things that stand out, though, are that I got a birthday/Christmas present from Hitomi and her family (some kanji practice books for elementary school students in Japan, a calendar, and some other things), I'm in the exciting process of trying to rake someone over the coals to get my money back after ripping me off over my textbook (he won't reply to my e-mails, so I'm going through my bank to reverse the charge.. bah), and I met with my previous Japanese teacher on Saturday. We had lunch, talked for a few hours, and she gave me a nice, custom-made "hanko" (I'll try to talk about it later, if I remember) and some bookmarks.

The rest.. well, it's not so positive. I really haven't been in the best of emotional states lately, my lack of sleep is probably more-than-partly to blame. I find myself hung up and upset over issues that really shouldn't bother me so much, and just overall feeling more and more lost and drifting. But I have things to do, appearances to keep. Smile, nod, make witty banter. Rinse and repeat. I know there must be something bothering me, something under the surface that's coming out by making all these little, smaller things seem so much worse and hitting me harder than they should be. But.. I really don't know what that is.

Either that, or I'm not looking. It's hard to tell sometimes.

Considering that my eyes are no longer focusing on a fixed point and seem to be moving around freely, I think I'll be off and rolling into bed. I still need to read some of a Japanese book before I go to bed (my attempt to keep myself practicing, day by day). Maybe I can just do that in the morning. I'll write again soon, if I have a chance. Lots of stuff to hand in and tests due this week, though, so I may be busy. We'll see.

Under "more" is a picture of Hitomi, her sister, and her mother that she sent me. Really quite nice. Hitomi is the one in the purple kimono in the middle.


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Jason