02/04/2006: "'Look ahead and you'll see that tomorrow has already come.'"

watashi no kimochi wa..

For those who may not be aware, nuns (otherwise known as "sisters", or some other innocent-sounding term that immediately disables your spider-like 'danger sense' and lowers your guard) run schools with iron fists. Sure, there's a priest somewhere out there, the assumed leader of this whole thing, but we all know (and it's plainly apparent) that the head nun in the vincinity is the one who truly runs this show. Cross her at your own peril, poor child. She may seem all nice and lovely when in conferences, at public assemblies, and even to the unknowing. But for those of us who have spent extended periods of time with these head nuns, the ones who make and break entire worlds.. oh, we know. No disrespect intended to any nuns who may be reading this, of course (please don't pull me by the ear, Sister Victoria! I'm sorry!), I have nothing but great respect for them. But that doesn't mean that they don't run schools with iron fists that harken back to the days of a powerful Soviet Union.

Went to an award ceremony for my younger siblings at their school today. As per usual, they got all sorts of ribbons and such for good grades, behavior, attendance, all that stuff. Even though I harrass them, they're good kids. I may not be their parent in technicality, but I really do hope for nothing but the best for them in the future.

Anyway, onto life-related stuff.. I made it through another week, which I suppose is a good-enough sign. I was sick and skipped school on Wednesday, but I think I'm coming around somewhat decently now (or, at least, I hope so). Unfortunately, I seem to have a rather annoying headache that seems to form frequently now, especially at night, right at the edge of my neck/back of my head. I suspect it's probably stress-related, or how I've been sleeping. Either way, hopefully it won't last.

This week, I need to start tracking down my academic transcripts, apply for admission to university, and all the other fun stuff that's involved in that. I don't think I have any tests coming up, though I suspect I may have a Japanese one coming soon. Being the responsible person that I am, I don't really intend to do any work over this weekend except finishing off some homework from one of my classes. I'd like to just sleep in, but this never really seems to work out when I try. Blah. But such is the way of the world.

I find it ironic that it's the images conjured up in the depths of my mind that keep me from sleeping at night, the ones that I wake up from and find myself lost and confused for, and yet it's the figments of my imagination that keep my moving forward day by day in the hopes of reaching illusions that I know truly don't exist.

.. ironic indeed.

I'm going to go lay down and get some of that sleep thing people talk so much about. Or at least I'm going to look for it. I'm still not quite sure where everyone else buys their sleep, but thus far I must not be getting the proper brand. Maybe I'm allergic to it. I'll post again when I have a chance, may be in a day or so, or sometime next week. Anyway, I also need to post up some calendar images for each month of this year so the calendar doesn't look corrupt. That's just not good.


Jason