03/06/2006: "Do you know what fun tastes like?"

In response to the subject, fun tastes mildly like bubblegum. I should know, I just had "fun" flavored toothpaste. Just kinda figured that I should share this with the world. Nice to know, I'd think.

Speaking of fun, I bought "Socom: US Navy Seals, FireTeam Bravo" [PSP] today. It also happens to be fun.

Finished my submission for the Japanese speech contest. Ended up at 886 characters out of a required 900-1000. A little more or less is acceptable, so I called it a day (doesn't hurt that I finished it at 3AM, 7 hours before my self-imposed deadline). Sounds a bit on the short side, but I'd rather write a speech about what I wanted to say than write to fulfill the exact time limit. If I wanted that, I could've always just translated a Dr. Seuss book and called it a day (I've always been fond of "Go Dog, Go!", in case anyone wanted to know).

Mailed a copy off to four people in total, need to mail it off to two more, and then met with another person to get it read through. So far, my results have been a mixed bag, and to such an extent that I really don't know what to think. I've gotten "Hey, it's fine." to "I'm not sure what this part means." to "Maybe you should rewrite this part." to "I think it should be written differently," followed by a detailed reorganization and correction of the entire speech. I could go into why and how I think this happened.. but it's really not important right now, so I'll save that to ramble about later. But I am terribly confused as to what it is that I should do about it, with such mixed reviews.

Midterms this week, two to be exact, plus a test to hand in Tuesday. I also need to finish a workbook that I need to work on the last details for by Wednesday. So.. busy week ahead, and then Spring Break. Unfortunately, Spring Break has already been planned for, and it looks like I'll be busy. Looks like it'll be awhile until I catch up on my sleep, I guess. But, best to not get too far ahead of myself. I have work I need to concentrate on now.

And to compound all this together into a nice, workable mass, I seem to be incredibly depressed and apathetic lately, a change I've noticed over the last week. Things seem like varying shades of grey, lacking definition. I just feel empty. To compensate, I've just been going to the fallback of escapism. Been doing alot of reading, alot of games, alot of anything to keep my mind far away and distant, away from me. There are reasons, I'm sure. Some of them I probably know. But, there are some things that are best just not talked about, and some things that I simply don't want to talk about.

On this highly optimistic note, I'm going to go to bed for awhile, probably play a game for a bit, then stare at the roof until sleep finally takes over for a few short hours. Have school in the morning.. need to be awake enough to at least blindly take notes.

Ideally I'll be in a better state of mind when I write next. I don't really predict as much, but hey.. can't hurt, right?


Jason