03/29/2006: "[Library] In other world, at another time.."

Been awhile since I've used the School login, which suggests that I'm away or at a school-related computer. This is also correct, as I'm currently sitting the library, left mostly without entertainment or anything else that would otherwise keep me occupied. So, I post to my online journal.

Finished reading "Rainbow Six" (by Tom Clancy) yesterday, and I didn't grab a new book yet, so this I don't have anything on hand to read. I also left my PSP memory sticks in my room, which leaves out music. I do, however, have "Rockman Dash" [PSP] with me, so I'll probably play that for the time in between classes (about an hour and a half to go). The only problem is that it's in Japanese, and my Japanese is more than a bit sketchy. At least I've played part of the game before, and I should be able to learn something from context and what I can read.

I need to write and mail 3 postcards and a package by the end of the week.. along with all the other stuff I really should/need to do. Things just seem really busy as of late, and I don't have the time to do all the things I want. Worse, I don't have to do all the things I want/say I will do for other people around me. I really don't like letting people down, but it seems that it's what I do as of late.

Next Saturday is the Japanese speech contest. To say that I'm nervous or worried about it would be an understatement. But, like all other situations like this, I'm trying to take it in stride. Sure, I'm not confident in my speech, I think everyone else is better, I have yet to memorize my speech, and I'm not fond of public speaking.. but I'm trying to not let it get to me. That's just going to make it more daunting and more difficult. What bothers me most, I'd say, is the possibility that I'll fail. This is a contest, which puts you in competition with other people. But at the end of the day, the all I can do is my best... right?

At least this week is almost over. Hopefully I can get some sleep this weekend.. but I don't think so (I usually don't). I'd like to practice the speech and at least get it memorized, if I can. Then I can work on trying to put feeling and emotion to it later. Friday, I'll be going out for a few hours to meet with someone, hopefully practice speaking Japanese some. Even if I'm not terribly social, it's nice to actually get out and meet with people.

I'm going to go play that game for awhile, then off to watch a movie in my class for about an hour, then home. Hopefully I won't fall asleep during the movie.. it sounds pretty boring.

I'll write sometime later, when I have a chance.


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