04/06/2006: "Pasting half-formed thoughts to make them whole"

I think my head will explode. Or at least it seems like it. The stress is getting to me, and by the time I make it to the end of the day, I can't concentrate well. This makes memorizing a speech harder. I know that I'll do alright, I should be able to memorize it in time, and that I'm worrying too much, but knowing that and being able to do something at different things. I'm just too nervous.

Other than the anxiety, the week's been kinda slow. Got an A on my test from last week, and an A on my Japanese kanji test, and have been watching movies through the week. So far, I've seen "Lord of War", "The Exorcism of Emily Rose", and alot of "Duck Tales" (the cartoon series). Soon, we'll be watching "Dark Water" (the Japanese version, based on the book by Suzuki, Koji, which I've read), "Land of the Dead" (wasn't exactly my idea), and "Short Circuit 2" (a really great movie).

I'm still not sleeping well. The dreams are getting incredibly vivid and bizarre, too. I'm just hoping that this is related to the stress and nervousness from everything this week and will hopefully pass.

Anyway, that's about enough rambling from me for now. There should be pictures taken at the contest, so I'll try to get a copy uploaded eventually (I'll even be wearing a tie! How special), and the whole contest is being recorded, so I think I may need to grab a DVD copy for someone. Will have to contact them about that. But no, don't worry, I won't be uploading it and forcing people to suffer through it (nor would I normally let people watch it anyway).

Until then, I have copies of the speech posted online in both English and Japanese. Do note that my name and college were shortened just because I'm a bit paranoid, but otherwise, that's exactly what I'm memorizing.

English Version
Japanese Version
*You must have Japanese fonts installed on your PC to see it on the second one. If you just see blocks, that's why.

Well.. wish me luck..


Jason