09/06/2007: "The things we aren't prepared for are the most confusing"

I don't think life really prepares you for having to look someone in the eye, someone who's facing the loss of their only child, and having to find some words of comfort that don't sound contrite, forced, or of the platitudes we all learn to speak since we're children.

I feel like I fail as a person during these moments. And yet I bring myself to them again. Mostly because I don't believe people as a whole will do the right thing, so if I don't do the right thing, no one else will. The 'right thing' in this case, of course, is not leaving someone alone in their suffering.

Such good times, huh?

In other news, I have some good prospects lined up for jobs in Japan. If things go as planned, it looks like I'll be leaving America shortly after I graduate for at least 2-3 years. The current path I'm looking into is a pretty good deal, though the more 'real' this is becoming, the more nervous/frightened I am. Basically, what I'm going to do is discard my entire life in America and attempt to rebuild something entirely different in Japan. The whole time, I'll be speaking a different language, reading and watching tv in something I don't natively understand. A great experience, sure.. but a terrifying prospect.

However, I'm not really in a position to balk at the concept of a comped apartment and car, plus decent salary and the ability to live abroad. I need to at pursue this.

I have some other stuff to do tonight, then bed, but figured I'd at least say what's on my mind.

Later


Jason